Christina Schmelling wrote: > Love, Hi. I'm terribly sorry to have not gotten back to you before. > Just thought I would email you what I found out from my father I will > tell you everything. Every last embarressing sad detail ok. > > I wrote this in the letter that I will mail to you as well but, I want > to know what you think about it now. > > First of all I will mention I have never felt better the full moon is > definitly agreeing with me I am going for a walk later tonight in the > rain to howl a bit tonight if I can anyway at least this is what the > wolf inside wants to do tonight. *strokes your fur softly*, *hugs and snuffles*. I miss you. > I will warn you its a bit confusing and I still have not gotten it > straight all the way. > > Anyway, about my father telling me about my mother I guess my father > was married three times. He was married to a Spanish woman (the woman > whom I thought was my mother), she is the mother of my older brother > who lives in Barcelona Spain. He then suffured the loss of her dying > suddenly. He then found comfort in the Arms of an American woman who > is half Cherokee (this makes sense cause my aunt always told me I was > at least a quarter cherokee) but anyway I will stick to the task at > hand and not deviate from the topic right now. Anyhow this womans > name was Mary and through their passions as my father puts it I was > born. He married her to make an honest woman out of her he claims. > They did not stay married long and divorced when I was just three > months old. When they divorced my mother had to sighn an agreement to > give up custody of me because she was only 18 when she had me > (according to my fathers story) and was not responsible enough to have > a child. In this agreement she had one stipilation to her > agreement and this was that she was able to remain in my life somehow > and so I grew up thinking she was my aunt. Anyway 3 months later my > father gets involved with his current wife and she gives him the rest > of his children. > > I know he is telling me the truth this time because A) he showed me my > birth certificate and this is a real one with the State of Washington > official seal on it and everything. and B) I called my aunt/ mother > (still having problems calling her mother) she confirmed everything > that my father told me. Hm, I hope you got to learn the whole truth right... > I just feel like my whole life has been jerked out from under me why > lie to me even about my birthday. > > On my birth certificate it says November 21. Why lie about my birthday > why tell me its in August or celebrate it in august. What does that > do????? Don't worry, my Chrissy. You know the truth now, what could possibly be wrong with that? You know that every waking and nonwaking moment I wish I could be there for you, right there, sitting next to you, helping you trough every single bit about your life. Because I know you would be there for me too. I love you. > I mean is he trying to erase what happend am I just a mistake > that he thinks he can erase. Yes thats what I am a mistake an > accident that was never supposed to happen. I guess he will not bother you about it anymore from now on... it's too late. The only thing you should make clear to him is that your life is not the life of him or your mother, but that your life in new, unique and not simply about doing the same things your mother did. I understand given the circumstances, he might be too blind to see the diffirences. > The only thing that gives me comfort is I will be with my real family > one day my packmates. I just feel so confused so lost I have no > identity anymore not at all. The worst part is I did not have the > correct information to let my true family knw. > > The worst thing is I should have known I always have had a maternal > connection to that aunt. > > What should I do????? Don't worry, you know you have us. Calm down, sleep over it a bit, don't let it interfeer with your train of thought. If you can do that, you might be silent enough to hear the wolf within whispering the solution to your problems. It has never occured to me that the wolf would be wrong. > Am I right by telling my father I never want to see him again????? Take your time, everything will be alright. > I am sorry I am asking you all these impossible > questions cause I know they are impossible I cant answer them I just > need help I needed to tell someone. Help????????????? I just do not > know what to do anymore my love. We'll go trough this togather, don't worry. Tell me: - How are the relations between you and your true mother? (There is one thing about some argument you didn't want to tell me about previously. Now would be the time.) - Would your father help with anything if you asked him to? - How is your school going? - Are you still friends with your sister? - Do you feel like asking anybody anything more about this? - Is your material situation OK at the moment? - Is Nicky with you? > Love Always and Forever Love you too my sweety. *hug* -- I could run like the wind just to be with you. Observer aka DustWolf aka CyberLegend aka Jure Sah C'ya! -- Cellphone: +38640809676 (SMS enabled) Don't feel bad about asking/telling me anything, I will always gladly reply. "Keeping an open mind is not about disregarding new definitions to things." The perfect package for online business, get your free copy of the ICI system now: http://www.aimetasearch.com/ici/index.htm MesonAI -- If nobody else wants to do it, why shouldn't we?(TM)