Hello Chrissy, I'm back! ;P Christina Schmelling wrote: > No it does not sound rude. I have decided to just deal with things. I > mean he may of lied to me about my past and my life and that might > have caused me to loose temporarily who I was. Now I realize that > knowing the truth does not change a thing I did not loose anything I > am still the same all that changed was just a couple of facts. I may > have gotten lost temporarily but the wolf in me guided me through and > I am fine now. Well just that everything is ok. I love you my Chrissy. > There are some things that are happening that I just cannot put into > words cause I am not sure if there are words for it. Other things are > easier to put into words. > > I have been wanting to be outside in nature more and more. I have > sniffed out several varieties of local wildlife: Squirrels, Raccoons, > Rabbits, Various Rodents, I even had a scary few minutes when I > realized I sniffed out the home of a small pack of Coyotes. *Nods* I've been outside a lot too, meh of course. Everything is ok up there in the mountain forrest, the only problem is that my hormones seemed to have gone berserk again and well, I've been acting strange, both highly submissive (which practicaly means I've been doing everything instead of everyone before they managed to mention what needs to be done) and highly protective. Allas for the protective bit, I had no pack near, which means it only sounded out, well, meh no word for it. Ok ok, I've had a few powerfull emotional attacks, from exteeme fear (and submission) over to extreeme agression. Each one night. There were some daytime shocks too, for example when a neighbour durring a friendly chat described a movie about a young werewolf, where by the standards of the time, everybody had the right to shoot a werewolf whenever he felt like it; it quite practicaly struck me like somebody wanted to hurt a packmate of mine, I hope it wasn't too noticable. Another one was when after a veggie lunch, I tracked out an open can of cat food without even most remotely thinking of it... I hope they didn't notice this one either. Last night I got an agression attack aimed against humans; this may be the wolf's way to go, it's scarry, but the agression is still in me. > Other than that I have been more and more wolf like in how I act in > everyday life. I have noticed increased fur growth almost as fast as I > can pull the white wolf fur thats growing in out it grows back. In > school I was told about a white hair growing under my eye I went to > the ladies room to look in the mirror and I pulled it out (btw, it > hurt) by the time I got back to the classroom it had regrown. My eyes > at night reflect yellow light (this caused me to scare away the only > human friend I had left). Chrissy, you're the only werewolf that never made me doubt you... Whenever, you always have me, I'll always be here for you. I love you, but not only that, you're also werewolf as am I. There will always be something between us, my white wolf. > My body has been aching and hurting. It seems the place where my tail > should be is hurting all the time. Not only am I going through this > but I am also going through weird body sensations that I have never > had before almost a tingling weird feeling. Sometimes when this > feeling happens things get worse and I start to uncontrollably shake > like I am cold when I am most definitely cold. I am itching when the > wolf fur starts to grow out. I have been feeling the same the last day of my staying up there. It was... interesting. > Walking standing up seems totally wrong to me right now and causes my > back to ache and makes me think if I went down on all fours it would > be better. Same here again and I was thinking about writing you about this before I got to read this mail, er... well... up there in the mountain forrest the hillsides are pretty steep and all, walking sticks are something completely normal, so when I wen't to one of those walks with my uncle (he's the dominant, lone, hard working type, I enjoy his personality and his ways on things. Me being submissive, fearly of humans and hard working, you will notice I am rather compatible) I recieved a pair of walking sticks. I seemed to begin to use them as hand extensions almost immediately, sometimes hopping around like a wolf would be running with extreeme ease uphill (even when I was supposed to be completely exausted). It was rather... amazing... I didn't know I could do that. > I cant seem to get enough of the outdoors. Yes, I should note that when up there in the mountain forrest, when I was not working around the house I was outside walking. I plainly couldn't get myself to sit on anything under a roof. And at night, the forrest suddenly seemed to be illuminated in this awesome light that comes when there is moonlight, just that this time there was no moon anywhere, it just dragged me outside and at one point asked me to run run run away. I would go and come back for I've been outside like this once and I am no pure wolf, I am a werewolf, there would remain this affinity towards the red glow of artificial light / fire*. > Evidently if I listen to > my apartment manager I have been whimpering and howling in my sleep. > I came to this conclusion cause I got accused of having a dog. I am > always dreaming of the pack maybe I am whimpering cause I am so far > away from my packmates I dont know. My submission attacks seem to be simmilar to this. I too feel awfully sad at times and I conclude it is because I miss the rest of the pack, since I keep thinking of them, esspecialy you. > Other than that I am superly in heat I think cause not only are all > the male dogs in the area all over me but.....I have noticed an > increase in contact with other were's I cannot explain. I have been > listed on the werelist for almost a year and nothing now all of a > sudden this last week I have werewolves adding me to there MSN > messengers and IM-ing me left and right. I can barely get online now > without having several werewolves sayin hi. These were's are all > located in the USA 3 of them are in Washington (don't worry I wont > meet with them or anything). My loyality lies with you and the pack I > am not going anywhere else. I am just sayin I cant explain it. Since I have been out there lately and not much in contact with the world, I cannot say there has been much of this with me, erm. But I have noticed that I generate extreeme amounts of this scent thingy, I must be sensing you or something. Hm can you tell me the nicks of these weres? Look I'm not going to hurt them, I'm just hehe... I'm not going to hurt them... or I'll try not to anyway, hehe. Don't worry. ;P > Anyway, theres more but I dont want to bore you with it love. Bore me?? Try! ;]]] Hehe really, Chissy you're not boring me at all. Write it when you have the time to, you know it's a thing to share. Take care, sweetie. I love you. * = May the 1st celebrations, glorified communist symbols everywhere, fires burning on every hillside... This is one celebration I'd like you to see once, it's magnificant. On the political side, a prommise of a better social tommorow, on the life's side a ressurection of a culture-rich, glorious past. Don't tell anyone I've told you about this, many people out there consider communism a synonim to evil regardless of this thing called reality. -- I could run like the wind just to be with you. Observer aka DustWolf aka CyberLegend aka Jure Sah C'ya! -- Cellphone: +38640809676 (SMS enabled) Don't feel bad about asking/telling me anything, I will always gladly reply. "Keeping an open mind is not about disregarding new definitions to things." 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