Hello,

I'm going trough some [i]interesting[/i] times here and wondering... Do you ever miss your natural (social or otherwise) environment?

I have this feeling that at my age, I should be covered in pups and either leading a pack or being a loyal friend of my alpha... At first I thought it was just a wish, but it seems my life is defined by my search for that kind of life.

And it doesn't stop there... not only I seek that kind of life, I feel deprived of the natural wolf reasurance... It's like somebody mentioned that humans could not withstand living with animals, as they need the human interaction, well right now I could really use some animal interaction, because I feel like the way humans think it's natural to interact with me is like they're sticking into me with ends of very long poles because I'm something dangerous... There's not nearly enough physical contact in human lives in my mind.

Like, I know that I'm a werewolf and not a wolf, I know there is a distinction, etc and I would not try to live in the woods with the wolves, simply because that would not be sufficiently fulfulling to me, but then again this is not a life either... and I guess it would be alright if people didn't take this utter lack of interaction for granted.

And then there is the funny way people define the joys of life, where they talk to me like all my standards are too high on stuff, that I expect too much, etc, and yet when I adapt to that appropriately and when it finally comes down to comparing, I seem to have like utterly low standards on everything. I Don't Feel Okay Living With Humans... it's hard...

So... anyone... how do you handle this? Ever experience it like this?