Jolien Westerbroek wrote: > Hai! Again. > So good to hear from you again. Same here. This post is getting a bit long (more fun reading!) 21 KB. =] > Man, what a good (tough) question. Let me think about this. > That's the trouble, they don't take you serious enough, because they've > outgrown your (only) way of communicating. Do they know anything about your > condition? Is there anybody (older) out there that can tell them about you? > I guess your dad isn't helping much is he? > Can you write them, or anounymously e-mail them? What can I do? If you write > them a long letter (and I will help you do so of course if you want me to > help), it won't help right away, but maybe they will think about it more. > I'll think about it some more. You think about it too, ok? We'll come up > with some good stuff. I think it could work if you'd explain my condition to my father, he will probably be taking it a lot more seriously if there is "an adult person talking to him". Here's his address . > > Well I can't do that, there is too much stress involved. They would > > sometimes ignore whatever else I have to do and stand next to me > > commanding me to fix the problem. > > What a nice bunch. How old are they anyway? One is 4 years older and the other 9 years older. That makes it about 21 and 26. > Maybe next time refuse their > commands. And than tell them (or have a note in your pocket to give to them) > that you will help again if they apologize for their false accusations. > That's how you treat brothers. The same way they treat you. Umm, no way. After all, they're phisicaly supperior to me, if I protest they will stop me by force. > Yes. In a certain way machines respond to the way they are treated. I never > yell at my computers. Because I know that whatever happens to them is > probably my own doing. (And I'm proud to say I've never lost one). My dad > (before his pension-days started) was a 'television-doctor'. He fixed all > kinds of equipment and we grew up, knowing that you should take good care of > all these wonderfull machines. I've heard some tragic story's in my days. > But happy ones too. Like once, after he went to an old lady that had called > him because her tv was broken. He had to bring along a trade-in tv, she > said. Apparently she couldn't see anything on it any more. My dad checked it > out. Spit a little slime on his multi-purpose handkerchief, rubbed it on the > screen and... 'tadaaa!'... images appeared again. In five minutes he had > that screen scrubbed and she was happy to have her totally beautiful tv > back. In 25 years she'd never dusted it of, because she was afraid to damage > it. ;) Well I have some simmilar happy stories too. Mostly on those mechies I've recovered from bad situations up here... Interestingly, however, most of those stories' heroes is my can of WD-40. ;] On a pair of old speakers with a built-in amplifier; the volume buttons were once sunk in milk or orange juice and they had a poor contact which kept going out on even the smallest vibrations; I took the screws out, and covered the interior with a thick layer of WD-40, then just twisted the buttons around a little and... it worked! They're as good as new now. ;] > Aaaah. I see. You will have to have a big house later, where you can keep > all your old and faithfull friends. I get attached too. Especially to my > computers. My Macintosh is called Merlin. My Windows doesn't have a name > yet. I recently bought it and made a connection between them in a little > apple talk-network. He has to proove himself yet. Maybe you can think of a > good name. I'll call it Cyberlegend. > It is only the lack of space that makes me give away my old friends to > others that can use them better. Hmm, makes me think. I already have 3 computers, 2 monitors, 4 speakers, 3 keyboards and 3 comp-mice in my room! =P But I don't feel bad about trusting my digital friends in care to other trusted friends. Right now another Aspie is going to help me sell my old computer to someone who simply needs a computer (for school). > > You will have to excuse me if you find this offending, but: I realize > > that you 'got' David the same way most people I know got their pet dogs. > > =P That's why I find it so romantic, it's sounds so out-of-this-world, > > dream-like indeed. ;] > > LOL! But he is my pet dog too! I used to call him 'straigh-dog' (lost and > wandering around) and he called me 'little mutt' (which is a undefinable > breed). That is so funny you see the resemblance. Sounds like me and Robert alright. Yesterday I heard in a movie "...so what was that guy's name that always hanged around you like a puppy?"... made me smile. =] > Wow.That's high! I love it when the leaves get that color. Which colour? =P > Just outside the > city here, you can drive through the forest (by bike or car). There is this > one place, where the young leaves from the trees on both sides touch each > other over my head. Like a tunnel. Just enough sunlight shines trough that > thick pack of florescent green. You feel a queen driving through it. And the > smell is so refreshing! :~} Here in Slovenia, we're lucky enough to have woods around (to pro' word is "jungle"!). > And you make Robert do that! That's funny. That's what friends are for. Yes, that was my plan. =P > I can't remember how many times I scratched Davids back. He also wants me to > rub his (smelly) feet a lot, but that I don't go for so much. As you will > understand. Hehe, funny. ;] > > It's a the kind of learing as with English: Once you learn it, it's > > automatic. However I obviously do learn it the wrong way too often. > > Wow. Seems like you had to learn a lot in your life already. Everything up and down from how to laugh. > > > Wolf-boy marks removed. aaaah. =P > > Good thinking. But I guess there are other things in life more important > than chewing meat. > > ;} ...Almost. =] > > Anyway, do you belive in werewolves? =P > > I've never given it much thought. I don't know. Should I ? Well if you call me a wolf-boy... =P Robert, I and other people like that kind of assimilated that title; it's the shortest way of saying that you have a wolf in your heart! > > What about them? =P > > You'll be sorry for asking. Here is the list of my animal friends. The negative snapshot of your Roetie would by my Pika (translated: Dot) and her mother. The cat is white and has 2 or 3 black dots on her (that's where the name is from ;) and a black tail that gave my father's new wife a cupple of shocking suprizes (at the sea side, we took her with us and she found her place in a drawer, with the first and only thing visible when you open it, her spooky swinging black tail ;). > > (Did you ever come to think that wolves move > > their tail to the side before mating? Well I saw that in my dream and > > was later very suprized to find it was true! Ahh, the 'dust wolf'... > > I'll never forget that dream! I can tell you about it if you want ;). > > Yes please! That sounds very special. I really believe that we can plug into > other states of being (like your wolf-state). The more energy we put in the > effort, the more we become a part of it. Hm, by mentioning mating I already pointed out the content of the dream, so don't complain if you find it disgusting. =P The whole dream is in bright-yellow-brown tones (that's why the "dust" in it's name) and there is always a fog of this coloured foggy dust around. I begin in the dream in some kind of a wolf form (I don't see myself tho), in some time, out of the dust appears another wolf (in the same colour tones of course), we run along and around eachother, with the other wolf making some nice turns right in front of my eyes. Then we play a bit, we roll around in the dust and she (somehow I knew this) seems to be enjoying herself a lot. Then we stop, she runs ahead of me, moves her tail asside and looks back at me. I follow her, hop onto her back, sink my muzzle into her soft back fur and you know what happens... Sometime later I was going trough that dream again and was dreaming again of how I rubbed my muzzle along her back fur -- you know like people speak in their dreams when they dream to intensly -- I yipped twice just like a wolf... then I woke up. I'll never forget that dream... You probably know why. > > Best friend! > > > > > Is he a wolf too? > > > > Yes, that's how we've met. We're packmates now. =P > > Thats cool! > > > > > If they are important to you, that is what you should do. Start taking > > > happiness into your own hands by educating the world around you. So they > can > > > never say: I didn't know that. > > > > Sounds though. =S > > It is! It requires you to be strong about who you are. Just keep the thought > in mind. It'll pop up when you need it. And if you do feel that you have to > tell people about who you are and what you want at a certain moment. You'll > think of this advice and it will give you strength. > > > > > We have a saying here: "Everything that stick its head (or butt) out of > the > > > grass, is mowed off". Meaning that somebody that sticks out (is > different or > > > non conform the big group) is punished. > > > > Sounds precise enough. > > > > > There is that human-animal-group-thing again. What a drag. > > > > I don't understand. What do you mean with this? > > Anybody who doesn't fit in the group because he's different, will be given a > hard time, because they want him to conform to group-behaviour, is another > way of saying it. Humans in group-behaviour can be very unforgiving. > > > > > We checked out Robins new school. He is still a bit young to go there, > but > > > they have a waiting list. (Lots of aspies/adhd'ers/ppdnos'ers and auties > in > > > our village). > > > > Hmm, when does Robin have to go to school. I have gone to school at 8 > > and I gather Robin is 4 years old... =S ? > > At 4 years old they are obliged to get education here, required by law. That > doesn't mean he has to sit still in a classroom and listen to the teacher. > They do all kinds of fun stuff. Also they go to this big swimming pool once > a week. They have a 'cuddle room'. With nice light, music, waterbubbles, a > big box filled with little balls to jump in, matrasses to dream on, etc. > Also they work with boxes and assignments in their own little corner. For > instance: sorting cards with colors and shapes. > I'm sure we will find him a nice environment with good people that can teach > him. That is what I meant when I said he is still a bit 'young', more in an > emotional way. The school we checked out would put too many demands on him > maybe. > > > > I know my drawing is pretty poor, mainly due to my poor immagination and > > the shakyness of my hands. > > You've got music and writing! > > > Anyway, I'm sure you're the one to tell who has the talent to draw and > > who doesn't. My art is music and programming. > > Absolutely, that's your thing. Still didn't get the chance to listen to your > music. I will tell you about it as soon as I have. > > > > > What do you mean by resting demands variations? > > > > Like sometimes, Robin might stay awake all night, while in other nights > > he might fall asleep immediately. > > I see. Sometimes he is restless at night, or sings songs for the longest > time. > > > > That sounds like triggers. (One type of behavour can be associated with > > another and then trigerred with that more easily than on it's own.) > > > > > That's not too radical is it? > > > > No, THAT isn't radical. I meant, well you will see, at some point he > > will devolop his own theories about when to get to sleep for best > > efficiency, those never work. It might be a little early now, but I felt > > like I had to mention it. > > Aaaah, I understand. Thanks. I will keep that in mind. > > > > What are "nose-tonsils"? I think I have something simmilar, but I would > > never let anybody touch my nose! It's way too important to me. ;] > > Sure! I think we all have only one nose-tonsil. Like your throat tonsils of > which we have two, you can feel on the side of your throat, under your ears. > You feel them extra good when they are swollen. Because for some reason the > tonsils are involved in stopping an infection. But in some cases, they are > swollen all the time, or infected. Than its is better to remove them > surgically (it is better and relatively easy to have that done when you are > still young). It doesn't affect your smell in any way I think, because they > are not really in your nose, but behind it. As they are removed, the space > behind your nose is more open, which will help breath better through the > nose. > > > > What I meant with "Sweet dreams" is the point. I get little time to > > sleep lately (only 7 hours per day) and I don't get enough sweet dreams > > for that. Then if I have a chance during the day (like all wolves, I > > tend to go to sleep when others leave me alone [in a way that I'm still > > listening what is going on and often pop up my head to check on any > > distinct sound sources] ;), I go into this sleep mode and get some > > indeed very sweet dreams, after that I'm completely relaxed. > > Those are soul-dreams. Than your soul can wonder off without being held > back. I know those. I have those often. In the bus or the train too. > Everything seems to fall in its rightfull place after a dream like that. > Very relaxing. Though I have to leave my dreams in the dream-world > sometimes, that I don't like. Do you think that the aboriginal dreamings are > about that? Do you knowanything about them? > > > > I DID IT! However the weight apprears to have forgotten to be lifted off > > my shoulders... maybe I have to go for a walk first. =P > > Congratulations! > > > > The thing is that everybody here seems to be controlling my access to > > cyberspace, if either one of them says I have to stop, I have to stop. > > The result is that I have a 6'th sense for when the computer is > > available and feel an irresistable need to enstablish contact whenever > > possible. > > Allright! Keep that 6th sense going. :) > > > A 'dust wolf' dream again maybe sometime? ...mm, I think I can convince > > my brains to dream about that. =P > > I would like it if you told me about the dust-wolf dream one day. -- I could run like the wind just to be with you. 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