[quote="wolfpup"]Hi mate,

I know what you mean when you have an m-shift with a lot of people around. I'm still pretty new to shifting so it is, as you know, quite an unsual sensation. Especially when they are involuntary. 

Other than everyone here, there is only one person who knows what I am. He  is my oldest friend. He says he is a Dragon, but I dont really know if he really beleives it or not.[/quote]

I used to have a freind who called himself a tiger when I was a kid. I didn't know I was a therian then, but we were best friends. I'm not sure if he perhaps abandoned it as he grew older, we lost contanct since.

As for the shifts... it's like the wolf reactions to behaviours kick in... and since being a contherian my wolf side knows well enough this civilization is like one big pack, my responses are mostly submissive to those who are supposed to be teaching me so it's really hard to conceal the pleas for reasurance and displays of submission... it's severely embarasing too.
 
[quote="wolfpup"]I used to go through this alot when I was your age except not knowing what it was back then really used to make me think I was just a normal human, but with no guts, or confidence. And it affected me deeply.[/quote]

With me the dominant human interpretation is that I got a whole lot of mental problems... I know it's not that, but at the same time I can immagine how easy it would be for a person to missinterpret my behaviour.

[quote="wolfpup"]After ALOT of soul searching, and alot more pain and suffering I finally found myself again. I had forgotten I was a wolf. I didnt really know what that meant but it made me feel like I had been made whole again. Or I had found something I had lost that was very important to me.[/quote]

I have found myself and not lost myself from a long time ago. It's like after I learned I was a therian I grew inside and I've been growing ever since. It also apeared that others I met who learned they were therians after I did were younger in a way and I could 'adopt' them.

[quote="wolfpup"]Everytime I see her, she is just standing up from where we are lying and having a big long strecth. But thats all I get to see of her. I dont know what these images are. Are they memories from a past life? Is she my soul mate? If so do I have to find her? And where?[/quote]

I have one such from my dreams... a gray-pattern or dust-desert gray-brown I saw. My GF is a wolf therian also... arctic wolf, but she lives next to a dust desert. I thought that might be her, but I'm not sure and it's not important anyway, because my GF is enough for me. 

[quote="wolfpup"]I guess what Im trying to say is that I needed to find ways to talk to other wolves. So you know what I did? I went out and bought a journal and started writing out what I was thinking. It really helps. Trust me. Its like talking to another wolf, and I dont get judged or laughed at, or ridiculed in anyway. You say what you feel comfortable saying and you dont get judged by anyone.[/quote]

I'll just trust you for the while. *leans on ur side*

[quote="wolfpup"]I also find that for 5 or 10 minutes before I go to bed, I just sit in my room with the lights off, and look at all the images that are floating around in my head. This is what I call looking into myself. Might sound wierd but it is an amaizingly helpful process.[/quote]

I've known how to meditate since I was a little pup, but I also have something I'd best call a religion. The moon is a sort of symbol to me that I use to feel connected with the other wolfs out there. It's like that astral plain bit except the moon is there to lead us. I just relax and let a waveing sensation trough my spine and I can feel the moon and the other wolves and I feel like I can ask them for advice.

[quote="wolfpup"]As for being an Alpha? I guess I am, but I really dont have a pack to be called an alpha. You are welcome to become part of my pack if you feel the need. And I will help you out anytime you need to talk, or want a laugh. [/quote]

I have a pack... relatively big... it's no roleplay thing, it's just a bunch of us therians who feel like family. I'm the pack's Alpha and it's been this way always because everybody else always felt like I was their Alpha. In life otherwise it's hard to claim to maintain that position since in civilization others claim to control me, so evidently I am a Beta and I only really want to be something, not undefnitive as humans would preffer to keep me. I miss the reasurance I'd get as a Beta wolf, so I'm constantly looking for someone who could provide that.

Right now my Beta wolfie, NitrusWolf e-mails me... I knew it was to do with him, how I felt shit and all... he's in trouble again. It's like this with my whole pack I can sense their feelings regardless of the point we live continents appart.

When you join a pack you're not Alpha or Beta or Omega or anything, you're just a packmate and our nature then works out the rank. So if we can be packmates I'd be honoured because I feel safe talking to you. :) 

[quote="wolfpup"]I'll give you some advice now though. Do not, for one second, let a mate treat you like second best. If she does something you dont like let her know and if she does it again, walk away. She isnt worth it. It might be hard at the time, but it will save you a HELL of alot of pain and anguish. I have only ever had 2 mates. The first was for 6 years and the second was for 5 1/2 years. Neither mate was completly loyal and I payed for it big time emotionally.[/quote]

With a girl I once had it was like that, but my GF is a diffirent story. She has had a bad life and I've always been there for her so in her heart she's all mine and she's a therian and she does not want to loose me ever, so it's really assuring. And whatever happens we will always be packmates with her. :) 

[quote="wolfpup"]Sorry if i sound like an old grey wolf ranting along. :) I hope i gave you at least some advice in all that. PM whenever you want mate. I wont judge you.[/quote]

Issa okay. :) Thanks for being friendly and all... Now onto my wolfie... I need to assure him I'll be there for him, he's in some quite serious trouble.  :(