Amethyst wrote:

> Writing is good, it enables creativity, sometimes structure and logic as

> well.  I suppose it isn't too strange that most in here relate well to

> animals, especially in the canine group.  I myself have never been just a

> cat or just a dog person, although there are very few of either catagory

> that won't have anything to do with me, I guess I'm just likeable.. lol



I, on the other hand, am I strict mental wolf, feeling quite lost and

frightened as hell outside the wolf-type society. For example here I

have a pack, me Howling' and Loner' you've probably noticed; it's not

just an online pack, we in fact can't live without eachother.



> I didn't mean for it to come off sounding like that, but I suppose that

> would be my first impression of an autistic child, one who was totally

> enclosed in themselves with no connection to the world around them.  I am

> glad you clarified that for me, making me see that there are various shades

> of grey and not just black and white.



There is a lot to missunderstand about autism. The experts are quite

good at it! If you check what all is under the category of autism, you

will know these 'experts' are utterly clueless.



> Well I can certainly relate to that, I cannot stand loud noises like

> balloons popping or firecrackers, or for that matter, gunfire.. lol I'm sure

> you're wondering where that came from, we live next to a V.A. cemetary and

> so there is plenty of gunfire in our neighborhood.  I don't know about you,

> but I seem to be able to usually identify what a sound is, and yes, I guess

> I can pretty much tell from where it comes from, so maybe I am above what

> would be considered normal in humans.



I am sensitive enough to make a day in school a daytime nightmare for

me. I just don't get normal humans... What are they completely deaf to

chat at those volume levels?! The 300 Hz range I mentioned I was most

sensitive on is set to -12 dB on my computer's EQ and it's still a

little hard for me, tho everything sounds a lot clearer this way.



About directional hearing, well I CAN move my ears to catch the sounds,

I hear more clearly when my ears are perked up in the right direction.

It's quite cool, but alas only animals can understand what my ear

movment is all about (yes I also express my feelings by moving my ears).



> > I can instinctively follow smell trails, atho I do not differ as many

> > smells as dogs do, I can still track out a mushroom from over 25 meters

> > away), which can come back nastily in a with-smell-overwhelmed city,

> 

> I don't think mine is that developed, but then I've never really tried to do

> that either.  I can also relate to that, I also don't care for strong

> residual smells in the area I'm at.



I don't think dog's smell is any more intense than mine is, they

probably just pick up more diffirences. The best thing about my sense of

smell is that it seems to be connected to some kind of object

recgotnigion system and I will sometimes get an indication like "two

smell objects right behind the corner on your left" and still wonder how

could I have posibbly indentified two objects as seperate entities by

smell, only to find out that I in fact do have two flowers on my left,

one blooming and one not.



It can be quite awesome, but so far useless in the human society.



> > which is perfectly ok to humans, who then cannot understand me

> 

> lol I have a hard time being around my mother who smokes, I can't stand

> cigarette smoke, it makes my throat burn, my eyes water, and I hate the

> lingering smell of smoke on my clothes and hair, or in the car.  



Hmm, same with me. My father used to smoke a lot when I was little and I

always was and still am the kind of wolf that needs to constantly stick

around his loved ones, which means I got a lot from those smokes, now

I'm paying the debt for it, sigh. I can't stand that kind of smoke

now...



> Perhaps I'm

> just being too sensitive to it, but my daughter is the same way, but then I

> already know she has wolf in her.. I've dreamed it, plus she has an uncanny

> ability to converse with animals, hmmmm perhaps a tinge of jealousy there on

> my part, or just not enough working to develope it.



Hang on. How old is she anyway? As I remember there is first a

devolopmental state in childhood, when the kid is not yet ready to

socialize with the others of it's kind and thus avoids them, just like

Loner' avoided dogs.



> > I tend to like bright objects (the moon for example ;).

> 

> Well that would also go along with my seeing vivid colors, I also like the

> bright colors, although black is always good.. lol but not navy blue or for

> that matter fire engine red, any other shade of red is fine, must be my

> taurus ascendant, bulls don't like red.. lol



Colours are not too much for me in general, I just like to look at very

bright objects when it is dark... It makes me feel happiness, so I do it

a LOT, just so much not to hurt my eyes.



> > which humans interpret as a signal for them never to touch me (is just as nasty as it sounds),

> 

> ohhh shiver.. I don't like people I don't know to touch me unless I want it,

> I feel uncomfortable with it, and I can't stand for someone to continually

> run their fingers over the same spot on my skin, it makes it go to sleep, or

> feel deadened, I don't know if that is the best way to describe it or not.



It's quite depressing if there is nobody ever touching you over a cupple

years. I'm a wolf by soul and I NEED that friendly

hierarchy-enstablishing touch, be it either somebody below me, exposing

his belly fur or above me, touching that chest and belly fur of mine...



> > way I am neatly furry, I love the feel of wind on my back fur

> 

> Thats strange, another  coincidence, I also have a lot of body hair, very

> fine and long on my arms, and yes, I can feel the slightest breeze on my

> skin, even to the point of insects crawling on me I can feel.  The hair I

> just assumed was because I was premature and covered completely with it from

> birth, which sloughs off in the last 3 months of a normal pregnancy, but

> even so, I shouldn't continue to have it.  My mother said I looked like a

> drowned rat.. lol not exactly what she was expecting, but she went thru hell

> to let me be here, even when the dr's wanted to do an abortion and back then

> they didn't do abortions.  She wasn't supposed to get pregnant again after

> my brother for a long time because of the toxemia, so she was on birth

> control pills.. so much for that.. lol



My body fur is quite neat and I have not been born prematurely or

anything like that. The fur on my back sprung up just lately, about the

time I found AHWw (I'm 17 now). The fur on my hands is long enough to

make it a formidable trap for insects (they try to land in it, but

crashland into that junge and then cannot dig their way out so I have to

blow them out of it ;), but I think that's because this fur is used for

cooling and it has to be longer. The back fur is also used for cooling,

but also for socializing and is another story (can be very very very

itchy because I desperately need somebody to smoothen it out as a social

act; I'm a lonely wolf lately), it's also about the same story with my

chest fur.



> Another thing I've noticed is I'm very impatient, I get bored easily so tend

> to switch from one thing to another alot.  I don't know if this is also an

> indication of autism or not.  It isn't that I can't concentrate on a task

> until it is done, I just get frustrated when it takes too long to do.

> Anyway, I do enjoy conversing.. and I type pretty good so maybe that's why I

> write so much.. lol



ADHD multitasking? Yes that's a part of autism. Just look for ADD or

ADHD on the net, there's enough info on that and it sounds to me like

you have it (but then again I have very little info about your behaviour

here, you probably have more).



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