Jolien Westerbroek wrote:

> Hai!



Oh, you're back! Weepy! =]



> Nice to hear from you again.

> Seems like you are a little stressed after that trip. And you need a

> little fur-polishing from your close friends to get back into shape

> again.

> I've been a very busy girl lately, like I said, and it's still not

> over.



Well as long as you're having a nice time. =]



I'm working hard in my job recently too; I now have a deadline: Until my

coworker runs out of money and needs to sell the software again to get

it! It's quite nice actualy. It feels great to know that you're helping

somebody (yourself for example ;) when working on something. =P



> What about teddybears, I still have mine! I shared it with Robin

> yesterday for the first time. It's a panda bear and a brown teddy

> bear. They are always with me in my bedroom. NT's might think it is

> silly to sleep with bears still, but they will be very sensitive for

> the subject. The teddy bear is replaced by a warm body (if they're

> lucky). Teddybears took the place of mom when she couldn't be there

> all the time. Makes you think... In the end we all want to still sleep

> with our moms.



Hmm. Guess what for me. I lost my mum when I was 6... =S



> Everybody yearns for physical contact to some degree. Maybe you live

> in the wrong country, because in the warmer countries, they say,

> people have much more physical contact; it is more accepted there.



Hmm, yes, but not this kind. =P



After all I think it has something to do with my autism; you know, I

send of the message to NTs not to touch me, with my behaviour. An

oversensitivity to touch will tell every NT that they must never touch

me. =S



> Man, that sucks. Does that oversensitivity always attack you like

> that, after 'being suppressed' ? How long can you stick it out in a

> suppressed situation before it kicks back on you? It seems like too

> much of an effort to keep self-control for so long.



It all depends on the environment. If I make a deal with myself that

after I return home, everything will be ok, that's when it will kick

back. I can only control it when I can make a deal with it. 



> During the trip, did you look for or find some relief?



I did actualy. I took a plastic ball (the rather big promotional ones,

for swimming with) that some NT friends that were very good with me left

me. I used the ball like a teddy bear, you know. That was my relief.



> I think you need a few good walks trough the forest and a few good

> talks/mails with your friends. And a huge hugg! (If I could run like

> the wind...)



Thanx.



> Well, make use of it the work-a-holic moments, but demand some peace

> and quiet relaxation for yourself after that.



I've used it. But the relaxation part doesn't really work, you know. =P

Right now I can sense some High Voltage <insert lightning symbol here>

in my brains, I've tried lowering it via meditation, but that didn't

quite work either.



> WOW! I'm kind'a curious on what you will look like a few years from

> now.

> Are you sure that the growing of the little white hairs didn't come

> from starvation for certain food-elements (annorexic people get it

> too, you know).



Nope, I'm sure. Because the other hairs, which are all perfectly black,

grew in lenght too. It's so much that a bunch of kids over there (on

holiday) actualy called me a monkey-boy... hmm, if they knew what a wolf

is like... =P



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C'ya!



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