Jolien Westerbroek wrote:

> HAI!



Hello.



> > Well as long as you're having a nice time. =]

> 

> Yip!



Nice. You know in response to this my two friends would say: <nuzzle>.

;]



> > Hmm. Guess what for me. I lost my mum when I was 6... =S

> 

> Yes, I was thinking of that. =S Than teddybears might not help it all.



The desire stayed with me and I kept exihibiting the behaviour later,

when I was too old for it too. I wanted to sleep near my father then.



> > After all I think it has something to do with my autism; you know, I

> > send of the message to NTs not to touch me, with my behaviour. An

> > oversensitivity to touch will tell every NT that they must never touch

> > me. =S

> 

> Yes, it works that way, I guess. And to speak up, might seem a little too

> much in most situatuons. Are you oversensitive for light touch?



Everything, that's the point. Touch just enhances whatever emotion I

have in mind by a monster factor. For example if my father is trying to

make me do somthing I don't want to do and the tickles me to make me do

it, my reaction is way too powerfull and way too negative: I

instinctively yell something negative at him and feel the urge to go

someplace safe from him. It was so overreacted that even I noticed it.





I had a bad night yesterday, today actualy. Everybody who is sensetive

to emotions around here seems to have had a bad night, even my friend in

Spain! I think I'm going to start beliving in telepathy! Anyway, I was

depressed and, you know as always in that mood, I remembered all the

right stuff to make me feel even worse. I said I have got to tell this

to somebody, you appear to be appropriate, tell me what you think of it:



The situation was that all the fammily was togather and they decided to

go play cards. I didn't want to join them; I don't know how to play

cards much and even if I learn it, it's awfully boring to me. So I was

left alone and nobody seemed to care anyway, so I got a 'little'

depressed. The cat (yes, my kitty) wanted to be with them too, but kept

getting too disturbed by the activity and went racing out of that room

every 5 minutes. It ran allong and it eventualy noticed how I was and

got tears into it's eyes. Suddenly everybody felt awfully sorry for the

poor kitty that was crying and trying to do everything to make it feel

better. My kitty was spooked by their reaction (which was rather

contrasting to their reaction to me) and hid away. It hit me pretty

badly too, but I put up an emotion wall just in time.





BTW, one of my old computers just suffered a low-lever heart disk

failure, stimulation does help, but it's getting worse, so I'm afraid

I'm going to have to open him up. At first I thought this was the reason

for me feeling sad.



> > Right now I can sense some High Voltage <insert lightning symbol here>

> > in my brains, I've tried lowering it via meditation, but that didn't

> > quite work either.

> 

> Aaah! I know that feeling! That is a very uncomfortable feeling, makes you

> want to run around or take your head of instead of relaxing (what really is

> necessary). The only thing I could do in a situation like that, was: not

> think about complex situations, not worry, not overtire myself and than wait

> for the next day and hope it would be better than.



Thanx for the tip. I think I have it under control right now anyway. The

High Voltage is good when I'm working with my computer, then I can just

put on some good music to keep me feeling good and pull up the Beats Per

Minute slider according to how active I feel. In those rolls, I usualy

type so fast that the computer can't follow and I feel really great...

be it that my hairs go up on every slightes inpulse and that I tend to

shake due to the overwhelmed nervous system.



> Well, the pictures turned out funny, though not as funny as I hoped they

> would be.

> In a week or so I'll send a few to you. Theys seem a little too

> 'constructed' in their funnyness.

> David's back is doing better, he can probably go back to work in a few

> months, Thats good news. We visited Robins new school where he will go

> untill he is 5 years old. In this inbetween school, he will learn more about

> his interaction with other children. He will play a lot of course and he

> will get a little school work. When he is 5 years old, he will visit another

> school that (by than he could probably handle better, where he will learn

> more school work and a little less interaction. At least, that's the plan.

> We'll see and go with the flow. He is doing very good. And if he's feeling

> good, I'm happy too.



Good to hear things are going well.



> > I could run like the wind just to be with you.

> 

> Me too!



Thanx.



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